If it's meant to be, it would be meant to be... If I screwed up, it's meant to be screwed up...

Here I am feeling rather lost and mad at myself but I don't know why in the world did God put me through this? *argh* I would rather have been stuck at home, doing my own things, rather than come down to this place to get scrutinized by two people (one of whom is my prof in business school) and being asked tough questions and maligned for not being flexible... literally... :( Haiz I didn't even get to say what I wanted to say and it was like... off you go... oh dear thing.. the interview lasted about say 15 minutes? I think that the length was good albeit my mind was a total blur and I should have said that at the beginning shouldn't I?

I don't even know why and who am I so mad at since it was only 50% my intention of going... I mean, honestly.. either way I would be upset... so I guess... oh well... maybe this serves to show me how attached I am to home and overseas... and how much more I should prepare for my interview! Thank God I managed to squeeze into my powersuit for the interview and not end up looking like a cookie who didn't know how to answer and what to answer... I deviated plenty and my mind wasn't clear at all... :(

*shakes head*

*shakes head*

*shakes head*

Girl Talk!

Girl talk's fun when you're just two girls sitting all by yourselves and talking about endless things and updates with different experiences! I thank God for my best friend del who waited up for me to see the doctor and then have early dinner with me... :)

Yes I am mighty sick and need tons of rest.. which I think i would most probably go for now... :/ the medicine is working o...k... so i guess i shan't complain... the blocked nose is irritating...

but the joy of eating is back! and i gained back the weight... so fast right... haha so i guess... it all boils down to the joy of eating... i eat when i am happy and at ease!

the stretch of classes leaves me wondering at my stamina to keep alert and awake for so long... hm... is it the cold of the classroom?

Rutherford's a Christian!

and I am involuntarily closing my eyes due to a serious lack of sleep... i do and really look like the treasured ones from china... and being sick isn't all that beneficial when you're already sleep-deprived... my nose is blocked and i doubt i would have a good sleep soon enough... been rushing assignments and some necessary readings before i go to malaysia this coming weekend and it hasn't been easy most definitely... what with new things always popping up... God help me...

but... despite it all... I really thank God for helping me in the littlest and largest of ways... it's been miracle after miracle the way i bump into people, the way the schedules get right, the way everything works out at home for me, the way the projects and groupings work out...

so... in the midst of it all he's sustaining me real good! I just hope that I would have more than enough voice and feel well enough for the rest of the week's important events especially... :/

got to get to getting my gotten work...

More comments...

A turn for the week this early into the week! Although I was wheezy and sneezy away the whole day after a whole day of hiccups yesterday, it didn't stop me from making new friends in physics tutorial today and real estate law lecture! :) I just love meeting people...

More comments from the VCF people... they all said that I have slimmed down! *surprise surprise* I am actually quite shocked at that... I mean I did lose half a kg... but does 500g really contribute to that much?

Maybe it's my tan.. a darker tan tends to make people look smaller...

Yeah that should be it...

We sold a good number of epistole booklets today with my yelling and haggling... haha... think alot of people would stay away from me for now... and others were shocked I was in both anntic and epistole... haha... we're giving more away free to the freshies... look out!

Come on little Sophie!

Come on little girl, wake up, stop your brooding and start your imaginations going on the right path... :)

Everything is in a blur right now... and it certainly doesn't help when I don't know what's what right now... I am upset, sad, mad at myself, feeling helpless and a trifle too busy to feel lonely but I know I am perhaps, a little inside... No one guides me through all these things in my life, but I believe it's God sustaining me through all the way... thank you God.

I was sick the whole of my long weekend and yes I spent alot of time recuperating and yet doing what I needed to do... go marketing with my mom, do my readings, go for dance rehearsal, help to clean up the house after my mom's cell, go to church, have more meetings, come home to have family time and devotion, read some more of what's left of the readings(which is alot), sleep...

Monday came and I was most surprised to see a single email which cheered up my weekend for that matter! I waited, to no avail. Was upset. Wondered why I even bothered to stay. I should have left. Maybe it would serve us better. Least I won't be able to show my PMSed symptoms and get everyone upset, most of all, myself.

Yet night came and a single email shifted my focus elsewhere... It was expected, but... I don't know what to do except try it out... After all, I am young only once!

This week is going to be so so hectic... I have 3 FULL days (I really mean 6am till late at night) and I won't have my friday off... but Saturday will come and I will be most happy to get to Malaysia to grab a breather... albeit some heart-wrenching details... which I shan't mention...

You go little Sophie!

It's a small world after all...

Everyone I know is connected to someone else I know... it's a small world after all... :) Or maybe I am friendly after all!

Everyone says I have lost some weight... I choose not to give them the benefit of the doubt as I think that I have lots more to lose... Some say there is honestly room for improvement... some say I am fine the way I am now... I say: I really don't care too much right now... just wanna eat right, dance right, exercise regularly and enjoy life! Oh, and having a bf who's tons of miles away from you helps too... it helps you lose your appetite sometimes and lose yourself in the busyness of work too much to actually enjoy the food you've got!

So, do try it at home!

Yikes, I almost forgot... got to slim down for the christmas dance! would be wearing leotards that stretch across and measure your figure out to be acres wider than it should... sheesh... Oh well, never mind that... if I keep up with the above I should be fine... God willing...

I am in love with two little kids from church right now... One's Justyn and the other, Jamie... Cutey Justyn is a chinese-indian mixed, and lovable Jamie is a chinese-british mixed... both are equally mischevious... and I heard that they play along really good when they met in the creche ministry! hee hee... cuties should just stick together... they make those advertisements on the telly with toddlers in them fade in comparison...

it seems like saturday today! and ironically I thought that yesterday was sunday... haiz I am getting all my dates and timings wrong... I actually contemplated sleeping at 9pm yesterday night because i thought it was 12 midnight! *shakes head* I think I need to talk less to the people overseas right now... or rather, person overseas... time flies when you do and when you don't, time literally crawls... :(

Would be having a hectic week ahead! got 6 hours of classes tomorrow and only an hour's break in the middle... rushing from business to science to real estate... :( and then meet my king of bad quips for tea I guess... :) before going for vcf's 1st fellowship teaching of the academic year... then it's wed for 5 hours of classes and then a project meeting before heading to orchard with some of the dancers to get our measurements done for the costumes for christmas... thurs would come with another 3 hours of classes in the afternoon and cg right after! friday wouldn't be too much of a breeze considering that i have to make for readings and all for my 3 day trip to malaysia over the weekend! :( God help me...

Hectic Hectic Hectic...

and i just realised something... i mentioned classes for me 'tomorrow'? well, monday's my off day... i start on tuesday... isn't that just indicative? i think i need a break! :/

University Dedication Service was a blast!

Reminding ourselves of our purpose and direction wherever we are and wherever we need to go is really a good thing... the message, worship and the whole program really reached out to and touched me... :)

Really want to thank the 3 christian organizations for organizing this: Varsity Christian Fellowship, Navigators, Campus Crusade for Christ!

I asked Wayne to go for this as well... I met up with him for a short while after to realise that he's an arts student now (was previously a chemistry student) and he just got his last module from appealing today...

How things change...

Classes went good today though I really felt that concepts were hard to swallow since there was quite a fair bit to cover and thereafter I plopped myself in the computer lab only to find him online and had some comfort and smiles at least from the little interaction I had with him... Distance does make the heart grow fonder... But nevertheless I had to pry myself away from the computer and Msn to go for contact group- which I did.

CG was really fun today! And we played games had more light-hearted interaction... went for dinner and then the uni dedication service...

I really regret one thing throughout for my 2 weeks of being in NUS now... I see so many people I know, but I don't have the time to settle down and speak to so many people.. I get exasperated that I have to rush off here and there and don't stay to talk and make precious interaction that I really would want! :( oh well... life's like that...

Attending career service talks makes you feel like a total failure, or rather, it makes me feel like a total failure... I don't have the cap to boot and all those qualities the speaker said we should have in the finance industry... After talking to Jon and Shane, it makes me feel alot better... I thank God that somehow I do have the contacts of people whom I need to know and somehow I am not so blur as to not know what to do in certain circumstances...

for now, i really have to raise my cap or else... nerd nerd nerd... come on!!!

busy busy busy semester...

did i just say that i like the busyness that i would most definitely be getting this semester? Yeeks!!!

I must have been high on sugar or nuts...

Argh, just imagine, i have a hard time trying to find out what i need to be doing this semester with all the papers i have to write and reports to hand up and presentations to prepare for... haiz... although i admit that i can be pretty efficient administratively... i think this is still a little hard for me... :(

but the happy thing is that I am still cheerful and looking up! :) have lunch appointments and stuff coming in for the moment as much as i can handle for now... :) before all the tutorials and things i need to do set in... :/

some of my friends have been melting in stress already... so early into the semester... it's scary really...

and no, it isn't easy in business at all... unless you've destined yourself to fail...

and meeting people every now and then here and there really brightens up my day! I hope that i would be an inspirational sunny side up whenever others are down... but for now, hi-ing and bye-ing everywhere makes me feel a little... celebritish... ! haha...

Wishful thoughts...

Been inevitably thinking of him even though school life has more or less kicked in for us year 3s... we're not given so much as breathing space even for the first week! This is evident by overuns of the 2 3-hour seminars that i had last week... it's so going to be worse soon... maybe that would be a blessing... :)

It seems that the cap score has risen for business school honours' programme... i don't seem to qualify... but I am actually not too worried about these things right now, though i stand at a very uncertain and vulnerable place... I don't think i should have the time to be worried and get stressed about such things- there is more to life than these issues which the world likes and tends to pine over... and seek to attain... there are the relationships with friends and family members... there is the joy in knowing you don't do anything without a rhyme or reason... there is the peace in knowing he would take care of everything... there is my constant want of learning, so if i have to leave NUS prematurely (according to my current plans), I would and shall and work and go back to studying soon enough!

of course, there is my gift of making the worse situations look good... promoting myself alot more than i can handle... surely some company could do with something like that! :)

*grin*

I am starting to consciously train myself domestically again... because we have a cooking competition in about 4 months' time... and I think doing housework is therapeutic... honest!

the caucasian guys aren't all that cute this sem?

well Shane was telling me before he left that according to Edwin's observations, the caucasian guys this semester in business aren't as stud-like as the ones from the previous semester... I wasn't surprised... because I have seen plenty in the US and I know how to tell a cute one from a good looking one... haha... so I thought to myself, what if I had gone for exchange this semester and stayed behind last semester? It would have been a disaster... *wink*

and he said that the singaporean guys actually felt the threat and competition from them last semester... I was surprised...but then again, while many singaporean guys claim to have huge egos or seem to exude those... maybe they're putting on a pretty good front...

and given the fact that I am so friendly with them and do projects with them every semester thus far... and they reciprocate the friendship... it is rather worrying huh?

nah.. singaporean guys have got the best hearts and minds in the world... honest! I feel that it's more important to own those qualities and not publicise them than not have those qualities and still brag about nothingness...

:)

Caucasians: 0 Singaporeans: 1

Baked myself in the sun and got the blues away... headache's gone too...

He left on the almost midnight plane to heathrow...

fast paced life for a catching-up-eventually girl...

wow time flies like anything and before I know it i am done for the week and have gone through more in my schedule for a day than in my past weeks!

i now have 2 swedish girls in my group! and i sat with the foreigners... again... :) haha... but we got on well and she even thought that i wasn't local! i don't know about the implications- whether that would mean that us singaporeans are not too friendly or comfortable with them but it's good to know that she finds my english understandable and crisp.

went for the interview and said things which i never imagined myself saying... i think i was sort of controlled by some form of extra help somewhere... some place... I kinda told God that if it's not meant to be, please kick me out from the first round and kill all thoughts to that... so i went in with a very neutral mind and just spoke without having anything to lose really...

they mighn't like my views anyway... so spray away!

going for the bizad welcome tea for vcf later and then council meeting before heading to town (most probably) to meet up with shane for the last night really... before he flies off tomorrow night... of course i would be there.. but... you know... :/

thank God i don't have school to contend with tomorrow and i have built up my survival plan... just survive the 3 days of classes and not do anything else... leave the thinking and whatever to the 2 days i have... haha since i am from business i ought to be more directed than before and start to organise my life as much as i organise things! got to start making aims and mission and goals (which of course pretty much depends on God)... but got to start putting them down into tactical plans after my strategic planning... :)

woo... more to go... get up get up and move it!

NUS Heroine a first!

With all her cute anntics which might have been too much for me to take and her accent which gave me cause to laugh, I found something else in this woman who seems to have it all in her hands... a successful career yet carrying a family-oriented view... :)

My marketing lecturer is overflowing with laughter and jokes and she makes for a very approachable yet demanding lecturer... how she juggles all these.. i wouldn't know but she's doing really well at it for now...

:)

there's really alot of work to be done... haiz... God help me...

and so it turns out that i would have to wake up early for the third time this week (by means of early i mean 6 plus... yes in the morning...) to go for the NOC interview... I am rather skeptical about this but because I didn't want to get black-marked for exiting without cause or reason after trying to explain to them the financial constraints that I am unwilling to handle and thus my not wanting to have any shot at it at all... so I guess I would be going for the interview... but I bet, that the chance of my getting in is really low anyways...

after which I would have my three hour lecture in business followed by the welcome tea for vcf business... and then council meeting... can someone save me?

I just came back not too long ago from a talk in Shane's church which was really enlightening and fun! I really like the preacher there... he speaks well, articulates and doesn't compromise on by mincing his words...

that was after the prayer meeting we had as an anntic committee... and dinner...

i think that while the arts canteen is a fantastic place to meet up with people and catch up, I think it would be a high hindrance to studying... haha... don't think you can get anything done there really... especially when I am so easily distracted... but it's the first week of school and so I am of course not worried.. just wondering what would happen when everything starts to kick in... *shudder* with the group project meetings and all...

oh the two sweden guys I mentioned about in my finance class are also in the same marketing class as me... I wondered to myself what I would do as a result of trying to pull my cap up this sem and needing to be a little more 'practical' in my choosing of project mates... would i still join them as a group? or what? my marketing lecturer just placed us into groups any-oh-how and i somehow got into the same group as them... *divine revelation* sometimes when God knows you aren't too keen but you have to do so anyway? you just have to do so anyway... :)

so am i going to join them for my finance class? i think it's quite it... unless something happens... more divine than this... *call me miss international please*

oh my bangs are quite the talk whenever i meet the people i hadn't seen in ages! another one would be mark szto's haircut... or rather, lack of... he looks pretty much to fly with his goatie and long hair... i was elated to meet him after quite a few months since he last visited me and ian in seattle... :)

time flies... time flies...

What a day in NUS!

I met so many people I never expected to and you can guess that this day was so full of surprises... I think God really decidedly want to cheer me on on my first day of school! I went for my first finance class at 9 and it had so many exchange students: which really reminded me of how lost i first felt when i went to the US to study... I know it's the normal tendency to ignore these guys, but there was something in me that couldn't let go of inclinations to be friendly, to help them along the way, make them feel better...

I guess you can call me miss international... :) i worked with two germans the other time for my business policy class and this time around... if wen doesn't adopt me into his project group, i guess i know where this would be taking me to... haha... two swedes and more for project mates and wen calling me an spg...

then had an sms from Shane to go for lunch - was quite a surprise really! I thought that he should have been packing for his flight...

when i got to real estate for the law module thereafter, i met colin, an athlete from TJ and had a friend for company for that module... he told me that jiewei, my secondary school friend had been talking about me alot.. :) met a ton of business people too... i think they colluded to drive up the bid points... haha... anyway, the tutor's not all that bossy and arrogant as she made herself out to be... in fact, i think if i had her credentials... i would be some sort of like her too... she's pretty spunky and loud... thinks in double quick time and jokes in triple...

i adore her... would be looking up to her for inspiration! though the law text left me begging for more funds... :(

when i went to arts i met eng tat (my vice chair in drama in TJ) saw another tennis teammate from TJ and met more VCF people... in the co-op, who should i see but my best friend in sec school lydia? she would be flying off to canada for exchange this thursday... woo hoo... too much in too little time!

wonder what tomorrow would bring me? I have tons packed for tomorrow too... going to be moving around the school alot... and be in school alot for the days i would be in school.. this should be interesting... :)

Bizad Says: No Slippers for you!

It's amazing how we can all be categorized as mature and thinking adults when things like developing a corporate culture in the business school has to be driven into people... but I guess it takes hard tactics and a hard time to get everyone into it... It would be no slippers for anyone in business (the cheapo kinds)... and you can be sure to be stared at when you flout the spoken rule... :) I personally think it's easier to change the culture within the school in asia using un-asian tactics... because everyone isn't too psyched about being radical, and most would rather follow the norm than clash outrightly, verbalising expectations makes for a good implementation of this new culture...

fortunately, it wouldn't be too much for me to take! haha... I don't have a habit of wearing slippers to school except for my rockports... but they have been worn a little badly... so i guess it's heels and shoes for me this sem!

what alot to do... yet, what lesser distractions! Then again, perhaps it brings me back to my friends, meeting up, having meals and chatting up in his absence... which isn't a bad alternative at all! :) I think! *wink* of course I would be terribly busy and while it can get on the nerves of people around me- the busyness, I think it would be the one thing people are going to be thankful of... so that I wouldn't have the time for other things... ? :)

I wonder how this busy semester is going to be... but thinking back, i don't think that this sem would be any tougher than others that I have scrapped through... perhaps it's different because I am finally getting rid of the things I need not participate in and doing what I believe I need to do... and perhaps the expectations of 'inevitably' doing better as a result of better conditions make for a more nervous start to this sem... perhaps the fact that I need to do better rubs it in too...

oh well... sometimes the unmeasured thoughts of just driving through the thickets can be your sole saving factor!

Roger Federer made a tremendous comeback from a set down to win the Rogers ATP Masters Series against 20 year old Richard Gasquet... Roger turned 25 last tuesday... and he was in doubt of his capabilities... he knew he could make the comeback... and believing in oneself despite everyone else's disbelief in you is vital in making that happen... no matter what... I have to learn alot from my hero...

I really like Gasquet too though... after injuries and many setbacks he came back to play fantastic tennis that blew everyone away... what do we know about his after match evaluation?

"I know I can beat Roger Federer, it's only a matter of time..."

Indeed it is... indeed it is... Little Sophie, it's only a matter of time... Believe!

On a side note... my cousin is taking part in the NTU pageant! Previously another cousin of mine took part and got 2nd place... that same cousin got 2nd in the Air Force manhunt... haha... I really wish him well man... he's my closest cousin... my age... 1.85m tall... someone keep a lookout for him? :) I don't think I can push through the throngs of admiring girls... haha...

it feels like it's 12 midnight already!

and i am left wondering how and why it is... time seemed to fly by so slowly yet so quickly... maybe it's the number of things i had been up to today and it felt like so much has been done for such a short period of time.... i have to get used to more intense moments like that for my everyday living... hehe... this is so mild and already i am commenting on its effects...

well... it seems to me that time is running out... i feel like i would be going onto adulthood in so short a time and yet here i am, mischevious and very unsure of alot of things in life... but it's been getting better as i search and find more definition in what i do...

gearing up for school which comes in a few days' time... and gearing up for the departure of a special someone... whom i won't be seeing in the next 4 and a half months.. haiz...

thank God for insane schedules ahead to keep my head off heartaches... dance practices would be for twice a week and i would have my hands full with vcf stuff, church stuff... thank God I made provisions to relieve myself of some responsibilities, though i might not have liked to at all... but it has all worked out great for now...

I still need to find the strength and sanity to live it up!

oh I have like 2 projects per module this sem and lotsa papers to hand up... would have to go to law library at bukit timah to do research as well... whoa... busy busy busy sem ahead!!!

God-given friends, campsite and meeting of needs...

Now that I am in a more sober state I think I should give a good account of what happened during the entire 2 days (38 hours) of being together... :) it was fun, first of all, and exhilarating... and made me realise what fantastic people I have got on my committee this year!!!

We met up at 8am (or so) at Lavendar MRT station to catch our bus which was scheduled to leave at 8.30am for bus terminal at Kallang. After promptly getting onto the bus we wasted no time in getting our assigned seats and as the guys (nelson and fred) looked pretty excited to be sitting together to hang out since well.. they're pretty tight... :) me and peishan got adjusted pretty quickly and started on the myriad of 'girls'' topics and had alot of fun sharing and knowing one another more intimately... :)

Peter was stranded one side, for which I really feel horrible about but felt better immediately after we got off for the customs at both Singapore and Malaysia as our change in buses meant that we could all sit together...

even so, though... he sat a corner to read his chinese book... i couldn't bear to look for fear of having motion sickness... *puke* but we roped him in when talking about obviously 'interesting' topics... *wink*

ah and we slept and even my eyes started to close well hidden behind my sunglasses for fear of looking stupid... whilst sleeping...

oh well... we reached in good time and I was disappointed at having left the new packet of hong peah that I had wanted to share with everyone else and looked so much forward to eating in the bus... but we got to meet Jimmy after a little hiccup of not being able to find the 'entrance' to a place that has 4 entrances...

we had beef noodles and washed it down with extra deep fried pork, soya bean milk (that wasn't too sweet nor too bland) and tropical fruits (mainly longans and dukus) that were so cheap!!!

Jimmy bought us that lunch and we wasted no time in getting to the campsite to check out its facilities... I must say that it is different when you look at pictures and imagine the whole place, and really getting down to the place to feel what it's like... you get a better picture and idea of what it would be like when and if we eventually get down for the camp in december...

after taking lotsa candid shots (involunteerily)... we headed for the melaka bus station to catch a taxi to port dickson. I thank God I felt so conned when fred asked for prices (wearing an england football jersey and huge cool sunglasses) of the taxis and buses going there that i was determined to find out another avenue... i found the auspicious looking signboard that stated 90 rm for a taxi there... instead of 150rm...

yay! though Peter had to leave us to attend to some stuff back in singapore...

and so we caught one with a probably aspiring F1 driver... he was cutting into and out of lanes with a frown of concentration always... for the entire hour and a half... or more... some of us felt a little worried at first.. but I somehow had this inkling that even if anything happens... my butt was wedged between peishan's and nelson's and i probably won't get thrown anywhere... *luffs* on a more serious note... God protected us really well and I felt a whole lot of peace...

we got there and went round and round trying to find the campsite.. the patient young brash driver helped us get around and thank God he didn't just throw us out of the taxi leaving us stranded in some strange place... we made friends and shared snacks! Nelson even got to drive the manual drive taxi for a while... fooling around and revving up the engine that runs on petrol that cuts less than half our prices here...

*yeeks*

we finally got to learn that we might have to have dinner before meeting evelyn and so eat we did! went to this seafood place to eat some really good food (though the fresh orange juice really tasted like orange syrup without a not so much as a spoonful of orange pulp for fake) ...

nevertheless we found the place and met up with evelyn... getting to the place at 830 really felt like 12 midnight for us then... so much had gone on that day... woo hoo... we were just too glad to be there... and having nice beds to lie in... then we felt what the rest of the campers might feel after long hard days of studying the Bible...

further negotiation and confirmations with evelyn led us to choose the place...

it's fantastic really... there exist my God-given tennis courts! and swimming pool...

so we stayed up to think of the ways in which we could publicise the place and after much brain storming and alot of incoherent crapping, we laughed and decided to film certain parts of the campsite... do silly things on film to publicise anntic 2006...

please keep a look out for it! there's raw real talent there man...

*wink*

filming was done right after breakfast which was rushed down since we hadn't much time... after filming we had to get to the lunch place to meet up with the food caterer to confirm everything... it was a good meeting... :) food and drinks were good... though i had a little trouble trying to figure out why black jelly drink didn't have the jelly in it... it was all stuck in the can...

blackforest ice cream thereafter to wash the food down and we headed to wash up, pack and leave via a horribly expensive taxi for a bus terminal at serimbun...

the bus left at 330 and we reached JB, Larkin at about 630... rushed to 'output' at the tandas given the 'determination' of the bus driver not to stop any time within the 3 and a half hours' worth of bus ride...

we got to kenny rogers' at city square to eat good food... i was thankful we didn't have much time to roam around... as not being able to shop in shopping paradise is really not very nice a feeling to have... so we headed for home... i reached home at 11pm...

some jokes that nel came up with so spontaneously!!

1. A chief justice-wannabe was asked if he would like to name his children justin, justina or some names along those lines... he thought hard and replied... "Well, when me and my future wife are trying to get settled in, we'll have a-justing... when we finally get settled down I would have a-justed... then just before my wife has her menopause, we'll have a just-in-time..."

2.
Angelina: Hey you feeling good today?

Brad: You brad I am...

don't roll your eyes! we've got worse ones... better to tell in person... makes it alot more... engaging... hehe

RECCE!!!

The recce trip was a fantastic one with really honest sharings (though mostly by talkative me who probably shouldn't complain about it since i talk the most anyway) and alot of lame jokes... honest.

we had such a great time just traveling around and getting to know one another though i do regret that we hadn't much time to pray together and seek the Lord in our decision making due to time constraints and what we had to accomplish all during that short two days...

ate alot of longans and prata, ice cream, junk food etc... oh no...

and i do have a hindrance to swim this week...

Aw shucks.

Nelson, Peter, Peishan and Fred: Thanks so so much for being such cool travel partners!

Anthony Bourdain...

*haiz*

he's so charming in his cooking shows and so suave with his words... so witty in his remarks and so laid back with life... yet is someone famous and doing well...

well he wrote some books and i am on the second now... :)

am pleased to hear of the perspective of someone i really gravitate towards... don't ask me how come... maybe because he's totally opposite of me... i shan't stop to mention why in the case of protest against my character... haha.

well we're going for the recce trip to malaysia in a day's time and it'll be rather a long time.. since we've got to recce quite a few places... and since i chair the com, i had better be down to make some decisions... otherwise... would have loved to spend some time with someone...

oh well... sacrifices... :)

anyway my foot and arm hurts from the badminton yesterday... whoa it was so shiong... i didn't know that whole bunch were like school team players standard man... even stroking with them required alot of strength... and energy not to mention... i can feel my arms getting stronger and more toned... yeeks! because that would mean bigger... NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cycled to the market with my mom this morning to buy some stuff for alpha group held at our place every saturday... and cycled to church for dance practice too! i think i much like cycling.... but the thing is: my arms ached and i really couldn't enjoy it all that much...

school's starting soon in real time and i am so going to have to buy a whole bunch of expensive textbooks... oh no... haiz...

swollen foot.

my foot's superbly swollen and i can see whole chunks of flesh whenever i look down to my foot... ouch.

i can't walk properly for nuts... and i have been for the whole day!!!

but met up with my mom's lecturer's children jonathan, jeremy, tim and kirsten... we went to little india, walked in the pouring rain towards muthu's fish head curry and realised it was nearer to farrer park mrt station that little india's... shopped around for items and got cheated a little before losing the keen spirit of shopping when we found the same items for a sixth of the first few prices we got... yeeks!

Fred and Darius were there to help me out and bring the guys around while i hung out with kirsten alot... to shop no doubt... since the guys were terribly bored... haha... seems like we did some discussion and realised that guys and gurls everywhere in the world do the same thing and react in the same way... play the same online games and shop for the same things... all are starting to have less and less interest in anything but gaming... and all guys play the guitar occasionally to impress girls...

i bought an indian-made bag for 20 bucks from this store that is sponsored by the government of india and sells its products at very much reduced prices than at the other shops which were ridiculously expensive... and tried to cheat us alot... was waiting for shane at plaza singapura and found a pair of shoes for 10 bucks to wear before my shoes tore my skin to bits... spent a small fortune on books to go at carrefour for 3 bucks each (anthony bourdain's books!!!)

i wished i could have been there at the book counter for much longer... i realised my current preference for thrillers and mysteries rather than the mundane everyday life stories which doesn't appeal (suddenly... don't ask me why too...)

maybe it's his influence... :)

i always welcome intellectual influence...

and so we watched click and it was hilarious! :) i LOVED it so much and it really woke me up to realise the happenings around me and the emptiness one would feel if he or she missed out on those...

I gotta treasure my loved ones so much... so much more...

Great Retreat!!!

I would like to thank the following who have made the retreat such an encouraging and exciting one!

William: for your willingness to talk to people at all levels and the love of God you exude that prompts us to love him better ourselves.. thanks for challenging the norm that we may be able to see the alternatives which perhaps, need not be alternatives...

Nelson: for his 'outputs' which have been pretty amusing (thus far) and his funny fist-pumps that makes for rather much, enthusiasm...

Frederick: for his constant yaddering on marriage and marriage... and his erm, cooperativeness so far... *wink*

Edward: for his wide range of contacts that would get us further and beyond with alternatives that lure man... but of course you're God-given... :)

Peishan: for your encouragement and patience, care and concern for everyone else... you're truly a sensitive new age babe!

Sien: for your analytical mind that never fails to scrutinise every detail till everything is put in place... really i need alot of leadership-sprucing and i could learn so much from you!

Kohni: for your willingness and enthusiasm that's unfaltering and your smile which gets everyone a little more than infected!

Sida: for your constant encouragement and 'pep talks' yup we're learning and pushing on ahead in God's kingdom... we're still learning... let us learn together... :)

Peter: without your experience and guidance i would have gone berserk, the committee might have broken up in fights and we would be all left seething... but God provided us you... :)

Thank you all for availing... May we make Anntic 2006 an absolutely wonderful learning experience for our VCFers ... like we planned... work together in harmony and love... and increase in our knowledge and love of our first love Jesus... :)