sophie sophie sophie, stop gorging.

ever since the empowerment given which by the belief that fat is beautiful as much as skinny or lean, i have given myself more permission to partake food that is decadent.

help me... chocolate ice cream, sakae sushi, snacks, butter cake and cream buns all in a day... which only includes snacks and the meals are not accounted for!

sometimes i sit in wowed wonder. at myself. my piggish habits.

and wonder how i ever managed to resist it all in the past, which doesn't seem too long ago, does it?

*questioning eyes*

cut my hair again. had to, it was all out of shape.

tomorrow would be having the dance practice and then out for some breather - joel's bday party. oh well... took out my going out clothes already in the case of my indecision like today... then again i did take the clothes out yesterday but still switched them as well... haiz. women.

i have fallen for you...

fallen for laziness. fallen for not-doing-anything. fallen for the impassionate music. fallen for the simpsons. fallen for being a couch potato. fallen for food (though this is not new). fallen for gorging. fallen for rights that don't dictate how a woman should feel and look. fallen for the american liberty.

my month's suddenly filled with so many things though. dance practices as pearl needs a rest from dancing due to her fall. taking up the worship positions once again. coming back to cell leading. coming back to meetings and more meetings. coming back to a frighteningly disimilar routine from what i had in seattle. coming back to rushings, craziness. but i don't want to lose myself in everything. wanna see what God wants for me. since he's pushed these things my way, it shall be it for now. but got to see cause what seems good may not always be the right thing.

but i crave jazz music and pubbing honestly. does it clash with the values i should be holding? they are not separate issues for sure and i truly think everything's permissible though it needs to be done with caution for people with responsibilities to fulfill... and roles to play.

ian soh, haiz... i miss your company... :(

jet lag.

back in WARM singapore finally after many hours of puking and fighting the feeling of doing further more so...

for 19 hours. my flight took me 19 hours. i thought initially that it would be shorter given the fact that the earth's rotation would be able to buy me some time off the flight, but guess due to the congestion in routes we had to fly all the way up almost to the north pole before trying to get down to tokyo and then further down to singapore...

and then now i am finally back on solid ground and due to the fact that i have slept for the past 19 hours or so (with the exception of almost 4-5 hours of playing jewels the game) i am not sleepy.

and touched home and went oh! singapore now? is it really? not so because i miss it here THAT much... i mean i do but it was more so because i am on ground. on ground finally.

trust me i can beat you to the jewels game anytime now. hehe.

was trying to pry my mind away from thoughts of puking.

didn't even try any airplane food. man ian would have been so glad to have flown back with me. he thinks the portions are tiny. haha.

trust me to think of those things when it comes to those moments...

:)

i called and he picked up and said he was on the way. i went like what??? so now i have my parents and him here... now how? two cars... and he has two presentations tomorrow... aiyoh. i feel so so bad now...

anywayz... prayed for him liao. he would be able to do well. :) i hope think pray and believe.

and i almost missed the plane from seattle to tokyo. they were paging for me when i arrived like 10 min early, didn't know they were so kiasu...

sheesh.

or am i starting to become less singaporean? already?

haha shane said i don't have the slang as for now since i have always had a slang before i went. in fact i think i picked up alot there... china-accented and taiwan-accented english... british english, american english from tv shows and australian english from the australian open.. you wouldn't think that i would miss any tennis would you? hehe...

oh of course... russell peters' imitations as well... i am adept. trust me.

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! i miss seattle, singapore...

i miss seattle, singapore... which more? i really dunno... but it has been a most memorable, wonderful experience.. something i won't have in time to come for sure...

there were so many people who came to have dinner... (some specially to wish me off)... jia hui, huiling, raymond, michelle, fanny, ian, simon.... and rachel, darius, and cherlyn came as well...

haiz... it has been a most horrific experience to be placed in a dilemna... not knowing what to feel : good or worse that i am going back home... :(

but of course it does have it's merits and downs for each... :)

we made baked turkey in drizzled in honey and bbq sauce with pineapples... and then we had veggies that i stirred fried (simon said it was good hehe) and then home made wanton... and then root beer (that was bought haha)

and honey to wash everything down...

grr guys i am so going to miss you!

so going to miss irritating ian with russell peters jokes... and his songs and piano playing... and our kara-boh-ok sessions... hehe

and sister act, going pubbing, jazz... portland, ny, vancouver... so much!

got back my appetite hehe

ate the buffet today hehe... was superbly hungry...

and going to eat pizza now... hehe....

just ended up singing and playing the keyboard in the room...

and then sent back parcel no. 2

coolness....

and you pple do miss me as well... there's sweetness that fills my heart.

there's sadness in leaving here as well.. oh well... ian soh - my best friend.

metabolism's slowing down rapidly

and i keep feeling like i should be puking.

from not being able to digest the food in my little tummy.

or should i say my expanding tummy?

haiz... i feel so horrible. so awkward. so funny in the tummy.

can't eat like before. and the lack of activities isn't helping at all.

so is the lack of exercise.

is it really psychological?

or merely a case of the cook not appreciating her own cooking?

i really don't know...

but one thing i do know...

i tried quelling such thoughts by packing up today.

and did so pretty well. am happy about that. :)

broke a turkey.

i thought it was mighty impossible. i thought it was mighty tough.

but we had to cook the turkey and i had no other choice but to try and break it apart. so there it went, bones and all... skinned. chopped.

mom, you would have been so proud of me! :)

seems like some national expectation...

well it seems like some national expectation for me to get fat whilst being here in the US... as if it's a punishment for having a good time over here. hah.

suddenly the web cams, which has never in the past been overused, are the rage! (to be used in talking to me)

yeah yeah so i grew fatter. so what? *smile*

i feel good having had this time here...

cause back at home, it's outrageous to eat and get fat.

i tend to like to smirk now.

oh well, and my cooking has been improving in leaps and bounds i guess... though more for the speed than the taste...

and with the warmer weather in seattle (it's about 17 degrees celcius now) my pimples have suddenly started to sprout. for no good reason.

the groceries have been killing me. by means of its weight (since i haven't been exercising though shane said that has been his life for the past 3 years and it's all psychological) and its prices... i have to buy less... sheesh

you never knew eggs could cost US ten bucks for 2 dozens do you?

i didn't know too.

the flight home would be taking longer than getting back home. something which i have always been trying to avoid cause no. 1 i hate sitting in a confined area for an extended period of time and no. 2 i absolutely hate sitting in a confined area for an extended period of time...

running out of clothes to wear around here... given that i have packed a good number of my clothing into my baggages...

sheesh. haiz. pout.

Pure nerd.

Pure Nerd

82 % Nerd, 43% Geek, 13% Dork

For The Record:A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.

A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.

A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.

You scored better than half in Nerd, earning you the title of: Pure Nerd. The times, they are a-changing. It used to be that being exceptionally smart led to being unpopular, which would ultimately lead to picking up all of the traits and tendences associated with the "dork." No-longer.

Being smart isn't as socially crippling as it once was, and even more so as you get older: eventually being a Pure Nerd will likely be replaced with the following label: Purely Successful.

Congratulations!

new york new york!!!

before i say anything that resembles vaguely like enjoyment, i have to gripe about my special term schedule... it's horribly packed. mon through thursdays i would be in school... for long hours. oh well...

at least i have a month of break before the barrage of events pour on me... cup runneth over huh?

and new york was fabulous!!! :)

the empire state building, rockerfella building, central park, the metropolitian museum of ny, the subway, madison square garden, wall street, the new york stock exchange, financial district with the financial centre, ground zero (was a poignant affair), broadway, times square, swing 64 (a jazz hangout), planet hollywood in ny yes, hard rock cafe, grand central station, huge servings of food (finally)... statue of liberty, brooklyn bridge... and lots more... oh of course... la guardia airport... and long bus rides...

am suffering from jet lag now.... a little not thinking too much... had my dry hair less frizzly... and back in warmer seattle... :)

checked out.

and it's like 830am in the morning... cause vincent (my resident advisor) couldn't make it for any other time... oh well... so nice of him to wake up and help me out... though he was going to work - baby sitting.... when i heard that memories for gracie's and my odd job club came flooding back... haha yeah... back to those days when 2 dollars was a huge huge thing... come to think of it... i think we were earning better wages then alot of singaporeans at age 10. washing dishes for fifteen minutes earned usd like 2 bucks... which probably means 8 dollars per hour if you would like to call it... haha... but we donated it all to charity... :)

anyway... checked out in 15 min... or less... vacuumed the whole place...

and i went to the observatory tower for dinner yesterday! with kathryn, john and amelia... :) it was so spectacular... the scenery and the sight... goodness... the revolving restaurant was perfect... after which we brought my stuff to acacia court. :)

maddening.

can't all fit in!!!

*grr*

been rolling and rolling and applying whatever packing skills i have picked up in being in a uniformed group and it still can't all go in... might need to send another package to singapore... but this one would be more expensive stuff which i cannot afford to lose!!!

haiz... we'll see... if there's anything that i really can just throw away or sth... otherwise... *frown*

shouldn't have brought so much things here... there are a ton of things i hadn't even touched nor used and i am bringing them all back home again... again!!

well coolz... ian's helping me out and bringing his lugagge down so that i can bring all the stuff to acacia court. nice of him!!!

and kathryn would be helping me out with that as well... thank God for a 'mom' in seattle.. she's my home host if you can remember and yes i love her so so much... going to miss her...

ok now. what should i send back home?

parcel sent would be there in 2 months...

and i paid a bomb on it. not to mention the bombs i would be paying in taxi fares to the airport, the probable luggage excess tax (God please help me not have a need to pay it), and food and expenses in ny...

thank God i had darius to help me out with the parcel... was like 20 kg... (now you know why it cost me a bomb!)

i didn't know books were so cruelly heavy.

had lunch at ruzhen mongolian bbq. had alot to eat cause it was like buffet style... :) yum!!!

and tomorrow would be having dinner with kathryn (my home host) and her husband and amelia... my kiwi friend... hehe

woo hoo!

been eating like anything... i dread going back.

and after i saw the amount of things i had to pack in to move out of my hall... i dread facing the music at home... :(

back to more studying... again!!!

yay i signed up for my special term. would be doing two modules... :) and i guess i might just be a little more hardworking if i may, to study for the cfa as well... oh well... i may be too presumptious about this thing... but i may not be too hardworking as well... :(

grocery shopping is fine!

after smashing my operations management paper in one hour... :)

and i went to rite aid and safeway to try and get boxes for my sending away of books.. got this huge box and i really need something a little smaller... hm...

i went grocery shopping and man am i glad! bought a whole bag of apples, salad, ready-to-microwave fish, cereal, milk, bread etc etc etc... and i didn't spend too much! Haiz... i am berating myself for not thinking about this approach instead of topping up my husky card to eat at cafe 1101... but i guess i wouldn't have had the patience to buy groceries anyway...since i was having classes everyday and walking all the way there was quite insane...

still watching tennis!!! indian wells with all the tough players out there... goodness... and thank God i needn't stay up late like back in singapore since it's in mountain time... one hour ahead of me... :)

and i started to pack in my new stuff and jackets into my bags and i got this inkling everything might (just might) be able to be squashed in... i hope. *frown* i really do hope everything goes in...

oh well... that's for tomorrow to care about! i shall just merely do more squashing,,,

ouch.

my finance test was a real s***case.

haiz... and no amount of studying would have prepared me for it. that's the only thing that comforts me... but i guess i answered like half that question... so it should be ok... but the competition in class is so tough... haiz...

pick myself up and start another... cfa... coming up... :)

it's the exams and i am watching the pacific life open in indian wells on tv...

sweet.

not that i haven't been studying but in between i just want to have a nice time thinking about nothing before going in and jamming my head with everything else... can't wait for tomorrow 1030am to come... that would spell the end of my exams... which isn't to say that i haven't been handling it nicely... but i would love to have nothing on my mind to fall back upon for guilt when i do watch the tv shows here... would be be moving out soon anyway... i had better make a move on my tv shows... haha

oh the world cup would be on this year huh? sweeter.

i still think cereal and milk taste really really good...

ciao going to bathe and then go for my test. will let you in real soon! God bless all you guys...

i can't believe it.

I can't believe it... i can't believe it... i am so bummed! I can't believe that i paid the full price of cereal only to see the prices being halved the very next day... consumerism is going to drive me nuts this way... and running out of my food account sure is expensive! I think that I have spent too much out of my food account... although I would say that the amount would be the same had I upgraded it to like the next dining level... so that's fine... but what I couldn't believe is how cheap food can get- when you know how to get it and where...

I just had my dinner at this place along the ave and it's so cheap... just a plate (the prices vary with the size) and you fill whatever you can fill on the plate and pay the amount for the size of the plate. I ate a bunchful of stuff for like 6 bucks. all in. can you imagine? elsewhere it would have gotten me peanuts. and i have been paying like what? 10 bucks for these amounts of food... sheesh i should have known about these places in a long time... then i would have been able to save some... now running out... kinda... again!

insane milk prices... i thought that it was way more expensive to buy my milk from downstairs by the convenience stall and so i got mine like 7 blocks down... had to walk. guess what? the prices didn't differ all that much. sheesh i am saving on all the wrong things! now i am so afraid to buy things to eat... for the fear of sudden drop in prices.. so i tend to stock up now... come to think of it, it does sound like some operations management question... uncertainties in demand and lead time variance... haha

tomorrow's my finance test but it really doesn't feel like so...

and two more weeks and i would be flying home. also doesn't feel like so.

healthier options are always expensive here... for sure... haiz...

and i stayed home to watch those reality celebrities' shows... seems like you never know how a person is really like in her outside and by her clothing... when i saw britney, christina and J.Lo on TV talking personally... it really doesn't seem like the persona i imagined with only the photos taken of them as reference... seems like we have to learn to see from all sides of the coin i guess.. and watching oprah and Dr.Phil has morphed me into a semi-psychologist... i could answer quite many questions... probably because i tend to learn from tried and tested hypothesis in people's personalities... of course people are different.. but there is some very basic principles lying beneath... always.

i think we should all go become celebrities, get a feel of overexposure.. cause it's what we're supposed to be isn't it? exposed and vulnerable. tried and tested. facing all sorts of rubbish and standing in the face of it... oh well...

my idiosyncracies in my melodramatic world...

omg. whose line is it anyway is so farni!

TV is good for the soul! haha and yes interacting with people after a whole day in 'e-mei' mountain in my own room studying is horrible. oh well i would continue after this... hehe... too good to pass...

i just met up with keith to discuss finance and ended up talking about life in the US and stuff and he advised me not to go back to the US to work for those huge companies cause it's like a s*** hole... in his words... haha... keith is 28, had a gf who is 32... cool man!

cereal and milk!

i have been hooked to eating two huge bowls of cereal and milk for the first part of my breakfast here... haha... yes first part. don't ask me why i have been eating like nuts... but i guess it's cold here and when you wear what you would wear back home in singaporean around the dorm it does get kinda chilly... *smile*

trying to keep my optimism! though i am a little sick i would say... am having a horrible throbbing headache. do pray for me... thanks!

i really don't feel like getting out of the dorm room... honestly... not because i am like anti-social... just sick. :(

LIfe's tug of war

Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind
Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind
Life can be blissful and happy and free
Life can put beauty in the things that you see
Life can place challenges right at your feet
Life can make good the hardships that we meet
Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin
Life can reward those determined to win
Life can be hurtful and not always fair
Life can surround you with people who care
Life clearly does offer its ups and downs
Life’s days can bring you both frowns and smiles
Life teaches us to take the good with the bad
Life is a mixture of happy and sad

So

Take the life you have and give it your best
Think positive, be happy, let God do the rest
Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet
Take pride and be thankful for each one that you meet
To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall
Take each day that is dealt you and give it your all
Take the love that you’re given and return it with care
Have faith when needed, it will always be there
Take time to find beauty in the things that you see
Take life’s simple pleasures; let them set your heart free
The idea here is simply to even the score
When you are met and faced with life’s tug or war.

Thanks mom for this wonderful poem :)

CFA

so many things on my mind. CFA. more exchanges to HK and China during the hols. worried about actually bumming around when I am back. Being 'real' yet balancing properly cause I don't want to make people affected by what I am and what I feel. Everything has its consequences. that I couldn't get the internships i want. that i didn't know of so many things in america and so i studied hard and people said i should be bumming more and be less stressed because they mistake my whining to be stress to the point of dying. and now they're saying study because i have been slacking. i don't want people to affect how i feel. i want to stay guarded and prim and proper. but it's something i shouldn't do because it is important to be in the community and share and be myself. but if being myself contradicts everything that is within the community, it's rather hard to learn and unlearn. and then after i have decided people should affect my lives, i feel too affected. then when i feel they shouldn't, people get upset that i am unfeeling. why don't you guys go find a standard somewhere and get it back to me? i am sophie. don't tear me to pieces with your illogical beliefs and ideas. let me learn, show me, and don't accuse me. i pick things up fast. and if it matters to you, i will change. i am not robotic. just a little less on the feeling side. more logical. not that i don't have feelings. i am just a little slow with feelings and too quick to show my logical side. i know personality tests are generalisations, but you got to know that by far, I am always (always) somehow differing from the rest of the women in whatever test I do. i would be totally swaying the standards. and you know what? I am happy to be me. cause it works for me. it's me. i shouldn't be changing into who i am not.

i'm so tired.

i am just so tired from everything. from the questions i have to complete to make sure i know the subjects inside out. tired from knowing the amount of work that i have to catch up with back in nus. tired from knowing that i am still not home. tired from trying to 'act happy' when i am not and i won't stoop to that unless you pay me to be part of a drama skit. tired from having everyday and yet not having the activities i would have liked because everyone else is mugging. tired from thinking about coming back and all the things i want to do. tired from explaining myself to everyone simply for the fact that my character is really just different from everyone else and i have been through so much no one would ever know how it feels like to be me. tired from people who think they know better and try to change my life and make their impositions on me when all people need is a ear to hear. no one needs to you re-engineer their lives. tired tired tired. i don't know what else to say now. i am not spiritually drained. been reading the Bible and it's probably the only thing that's keeping me on. otherwise, all connections with people leaves me dry and feeling nothingness...

somebody please stop me!

please stop me from eating... but sheesh it's been getting cold... i honestly cannot take myself from food esp when the people around me love food... kudos to the management group of mine... and we're going to eat korean food this sat night... help me... save me from this place...

maybe it's the stress. oh well.

but thai 65 was good... hehe

woo hoo! er...

now i have to start to study like anything... sheesh.

and stop messing around going out and stuff.. this is serious and i need to get into the mood.. would someone however teach me how to mug? when the condition's not right? grit. i really hate to study outside of my room but my roomie isn't the sort to study around... the tv would be on, she would be talking on the phone loudly and the computer's making all sorts of german noises for her german class...

and neither do i want to take a long hike to school just to study... it would be stupid. the cafe's lightings are really bad... and i need food around me to study...

how how how how how???

tomorrow- the last day of school for me.

thereafter, the exams and then i would be gone to new york before coming back to seattle where hopefully i can still hang out with some friends before i leave for home...

3 months... gone just like that.

what have i accomplished? what have i achieved?

i know i have rediscovered my first love with Jesus. that's one thing i am very very relieved i found...

i know i studied hard enough though not insanely hard and had good fun hanging out listening to jazz at pubs, going places like vancouver and portland and soon new york...

and made friends - both american and asians... one of whom would be coming back to singapore shortly after i get back.

went to University Presbytarian Church and experienced a whole new gospel choir music in worship as well as a whole new way of worship in service... where people openly pray for one another and give thanks and rededicate people's service to God without fail every week...

had a chance to eat alot and am still eating alot while it lasts... until i get back and probably would have to watch my diet without the cold weather...

had a chance to see portions of food and the way of life and the way of thought and speech with my friends here... my roomie alicia... my finance friends jay keith sophia (yes there is another sophia) ting ting eric and my prof Jaehoon Hahn... marketing friends julia jackie faryar david S tony etc. operations management friends oliver and of course my dearest roolin!!! management friends yuky william danny yong han...

me, yuky, william and danny just had dinner at chinatown's Jade Kitchen after our meeting for our presentation tomorrow.. last class of the term and we finish it with a bang. wow. haha...

hopefully we can go out for lunch thereafter... at thai 65!!!

hehe. the ave... my favorite place to go... a.k.a "university way"

shopping at northgate had been a memorable experience with the assignments i had to do for marketing...

finance was interesting for all its concepts and difficulty... though it would have been worse back in singapore...

the papers i had to write for management as well as the classes we had with the polaroid cameras as well as barbies was cute...

oh wow. so much so little time.

and i haven't toured seattle. dang.

pals pals.

whoa my roomie was saying that i am only starting to have a real american life now... hanging out often, not coming back to study and what is and nots... been hanging out with various people from my management class, finance class and such... even going to be hanging out studying for the exams... haha... so i guess it's not just all work and no play... :)

but i really desperately need to get my life back in order... need to make sure that i am studying enough and would study enough for the exams... just got back my management position paper which i said i wrote out of point. he noticed. was surprised. gave me a bad mark. oh well.

things happen don't they?

yet all that's in my head is the loss i would be feeling when i leave seattle for home...

diet failure no. 1...

i started on my pot of peanut butter and cinnamon rolls and chocolates. again.

okok... forgive me i'll try to make it tomorrow with more salad and less of those silly things...

i just came back from a gospel choir concert. oh man. after watching sister act 1 and 2 on TV yesterday night... was so good. how i wished i had the time to stay on and join the university gospel choir... haiz... they call themselves the university singers and go from church to church to perform as well...

but it was very enriching and touching no doubt. :)

for my yoke is light and my burden is easy...

i never knew that in Jesus' time carpenters were more or less tasked with the job of making yokes for the oxen to pull the burden of load they had. and the carpenters had to be really skilled in this for it takes the top carpenters to build these... to ensure that the oxen would not get bruises from carrying the load, that the yoke fits nicely on its back, that it would be smooth and light and not cause any abrasive action... wouldn't be pain.

Jesus was a master carpenter... he made yokes in his time. the yokes that he makes are light and smooth and fits easily on us. just like the yoke made for two oxen that must sit perfectly and be perfectly balanced on both oxen to pull the carriage or whatever it is, Jesus wants to fit a perfect yoke on me, one that is light and smooth and helps me rather than burden me. who else to fit a yoke on me but someone who knows me inside out?

and makes sure he's alongside me, pulling the burden and making sure the yoke still sits and fits nicely on me... :)

out of the wilderness comes streams of living water...

"Silhouette of a perfect frame"

Silhouette of a perfect frame
The shadows of your joy, has still remained
Those fun-filled laughter has faded away...

I miss those soft brushes against your grace,
The scent of your spirit leaves me in a daze
I want to know I'd find my way...

Pre Chorus:
Back to you once again
This choice I had to make
All this is hurting me I'd say,
But your perfect love drives it all away...

Chorus:
And I thank you for your touch
Though i was so lost and rebellious
You never gave up on me

And I thank you for your mercy
Precious drops of hope,
I will cling to from now

There is nothing that compares to you,
Oh... sweet Jesus... I love you.

Words and Music by his undeserving servant,
Sophie.

In Christ alone.

In Christ alone, I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory, let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
Is Christ alone...

insecurity.

insecurity makes you feel like there's a need to be prideful to intimidate and push away any instances of your vulnerability...

insecurity makes you do the most ridiculous thing and makes you jusfity your actions according to your own logic, or by confusing others in a myraid of words... or both.

it makes you want to look for avenues which are often mistakened as those of fun-loving nature, yet thinking through this whole thought process of yours has never been in the list...

it makes you feel the highs and lows and become more moody, pms becomes a consistent fool-proof excuse and your life isn't right without people in your life... you cannot seem to be alone, when you used to be able to.

but perhaps that all stems from not realising the insecurities within... and now that i have realised it, it's time to move on, change, apologise for whatever hurts i have caused, make things new or whatever that's in my capacity and let God do the rest. i just need to talk things out with friends who understand me and won't see me as s*** when they know the true me...

then again my posting it serves not as a form of getting others to be aware of this, but to say that i am imperfect and through his perfection i am made well... and i am working on this... so be patient with me.

badminton took the breath out of me...

yesterday had a fine time playing badminton with cherlyn and ian... and though we didn't thrash him, not one bit... i would always remember her as my badminton partner... haha... she does the net stuff i do the smashing... :)

anyways then we went to northgate to have dinner, joined by darius as he had classes during the time we were having fun... poor guy. haha

sat there and talked singaporean for a long while before heading back home to get a well-deserved rest!

been working on my management paper all morning and now trying to clear out my desk which is really full of junk! cause would be moving out pretty soon and i don't like to wait till the last min to get rid of stuff... that would take up too much time and would be too stressful for sure... for me, at least!

sigh. wonderful weekend.

pop went the pop corn one day...

:) Popping popcorns in the middle of the night is fun... eating it is even better... goodness i had better stop.. but america's too good to stop for food...

my roomie said she would miss me alot when i go back cause she said i am the coolest roomie she's ever had... haha... i felt really flattered...

and in some sense, we kinda got along really well... when i first met this tall and outspoken girl i was kinda taken aback... but she turned out to be the american version of me... so anyways... haha... i advised her into getting school on time and going for classes and getting a job.

she's going to church with me and ian this coming sunday... :)

and i might be going to her place when i get back from the new york trip since she lives in
tacoma and the sea-tac airport is in between seattle and tacoma... :)

argh. why am i only making the closer friends like now? and i just got my indo chinese and singaporean friends's contacts... we went for 'kopi' this morning...

maybe it's progressive that's why... :)

cinnamon rolls and chocolate brownies...

and not to forget... donuts!!!

sheesh i am really going to get fat this way on...

need to go on a diet... i think! but then the food's always just below me... and food's everywhere... it's rather hard to resist... honestly :(

had thai food yesterday as i mentioned and of course... north indian food today! man the naan was delicious... *slurp*

and tomorrow going to ima to play badminton... but i heard that the shuttercocks are in pretty bad conditions... hm

oh well...

mai pen rai... *smile*

going to northgate shopping centre thereafter... woo hoo!

ah i forgot to mention...

we got full marks for our marketing presentation and... faryar (my jewish friend) looked every bit the model.. he's so stunning and right after class he had all the guys asking about his choice of clothing ( he wore a pink shirt and a darker pink tie with a full suit) and the girls suddenly making conversations with him... oh well... and no one wanted to talk to him at the beginning of class... except me. (probably cause he looked a little shabbier in his slacks) *shrug* i guess i pick gems in a sense... :0)

would be going downtown with melanie and her bf and ian to watch a movie and hang out at thai tom... :) melanie's american... and i met her at fiuts... she's nice... would love to continue contacting her whilst back at home...

oh of course there's my other 'soul mate' alicia... my roomie... yeah she's american and although we lead totally separate and different lives... at the end of the day we can connect and talk and think like each other... perhaps it's due to the influence of mathematics in our lives... we're totally logical and assertive... hehe...

don't mess with us...

don't know why i am feeling so frothy today... perhaps because mr mermaid man made eyes again... sheesh... haha... and i finally found that the best class i had been in with the friendliest people around were the finance people... and it's the end of the term.. yeah jay was saying that... haiz...

not to mention but someone else in my life's from finance as well...

goodness... the connections are making me shudder... but i think i know where i should be heading to now... :)

you rock baby finance...

and it might just happen in the US...

where the finance people aren't crazily insanely upbeat about the work load... financial analysts have one of the worse work times amongst all jobs... they care about getting married and having a life other than the work...

finally the marketing thing is over...

and i don't really care that the peer evaluation forms would be disastrous for me for the fact not that i didn't want to work but that we didn't have the chance to really work together... i think i honestly have to leave it at that and hope i pass...

everything about the marketing class was shit for me honestly but the finance was good... operations management was good... as well as the management class... that was really good!

i am surprised.

and so i have taken to talking to the finance guys in the lab... haha... well they approach me... i don't talk to them... :)

and they think of me as this really sharp and smart asian girl... someone who's definitely into finance... looks the part and stays the part... well i admitted that i am all but a good student back at home and they shake their heads in disbelief... all of them asked me if i would be staying back in the USA... or coming back soon... *grin*

i should huh? i think i might just earn my keep being a finance person here and being a wife to an... erm, american? :)

joking... of course i am! am i? *EYE BROW UP*

darn the phone bill rolled over and i feel horrible again (part two)

haiz... it's really bad... i thought that that was the end of the whole phone bill fiasco but it's rolled over... which is weird because i stopped using the phone ever since i got that info from my parents and i merely used skype...

:(

darn.

anyway, today's my marketing presentation and i so want to get over it... as well as next week's presentation though that would be the least of my worries now...

*grr* i just can't believe my sponging off so much... in of all things... phone bills...

sheesh.