complications

slight chance of not going for my exchange.

yet i had secured it.

they only allow three modules per term there.

if i were to go only for a term i would have to graduate much later.

that's stupid.

but if for two terms. not a problem, can take 6 modules there in total.

but am i allowed 5 modules in a term?

that's the question to answer.

nailed it.

nailed the two presentations- finance and managerial accounting. and i suppose what made me all the more happier is the fact that this time around i was the one leading the discussions along to get the answers to agree and things like that during the meetings... so it all went well.

i guess you could say that people only start to know the Lord better in times of need. i suppose i can say i totally agree.

i suppose also that despite whatever rubbish i had to face and the rubbish i would be facing in time to come (i just came to know of 3 more deadlines on top of the myriad of datelines that's killing me already today), i know he'll carry me through...

these few days have been constant confirmation of his love for me.

there would be more presentations and homework to come... but i believe when the Lord is for me, it matters not whether i would be able to do my tutorials or presentations well or not. what matters is that you still feel proud to be you no matter what happens in the world...

because you're made in his image...

no monkey business will do! :)

well well well...

today i just had the urge to go for the aiesec talk. no doubt it was just a duty for me to pass out the cheques and stuff... but knowing me i could have easily 'tai-chied' it...

yet i went. despite me needing to wake up at 6 this morning and dress up - formal and needing to rush back to church for dance and then have my meeting...

i found out that my obedience to God to keep to my word to my friends to go this morning led me to speak to a sister in christ from aiesec who was struggling in the faith. i lent her a copy of the pdl which i placed in my bag out of convenience this morning (and now i know why it had to be) and she was so touched... i just smiled to myself before i rushed to church.

somehow things are starting to get together. have some meaning. the moment i blurt every struggle i had...

my dance practices have brought me closer to one of my cell group members. i thank God for this special friendship i have found in her... she's a great dancer, a very delicate and nice girl.

dance ended early for some miscommunications and we had to leave early... but i had time to get home to explain why i hadn't been home much these days to my parents... and thank God for that... it avoided a total fight-out at home... my projects and my studies are getting tougher. now they understand.

my fellow group mate who offered his home for our group discussion? well he's very nice and i had this hunch he was a christian. he used to be for that matter. would try to be following up...

life does have some meaning. but it probably would mean alot more if my friends around me could appreciate what i am doing... which, i'd have to say... i feel alot more comfortable talking to my vcf friends about... maybe it's because we have the same goals and views... aspirations and dreams... to live in whatever capacity for christ. see the huge picture rather than the small...

live for eternity and not for now.

btw, i almost had three car accidents today whilst in my very dire mood swings...

two cars almost banged into me this morning and evening as i was going to me destination and back home...

one more? when my friend was giving me a lift from his house...

something's telling me it's not just about the cars and accidents... God's reminding me about something good... he still loves me alot.

alright. so i'm a little pmsed.

grit. i'm trying to be everywhere and i can't. i'm trying to please everyone and i'm not able to. i'm trying to keep the peace... but seems like i'm not getting anywhere.

i don't want to do alot of the things that i am doing. i want to do some things that i am not doing. i want to reconstruct my commitments again. but it's impossible... it's like being in this vacuum and i cannot get out of it... everything floats without gravity- no laws. everything just exists.

i don't just want to exist. i want to live for him. i don't want those things that don't matter anymore. but i just want to be and do something's that of worth. i don't wish to jump about and rave about something that is possibly never going to be of any worth...

period.

quoted unquoted. cover uncovered.

i kinda find life a little more interestingly hard to live at the moment.

and it's not about the work one's got to do (although that in itself is enough to kill)

ya, as if work's not enough, we've still got so much silly stuff to tend to. which i don't even know where to begin with and what to start with...

i feel valued in some ways, in some ways, not so stellar. in some ways i understand that everyone has the standard same number of hours and whilst some others choose to use the time a more in A than B, it's more like me to put time where others don't really put their time into. like more into B than A. so that makes me not so popular in A and while B wants to embrace me, i can't because of what i am, and what i need to do. a duty to accomplish with much sacrifice... yet i don't know if people actually see it through my eyes, or try to in any case...

no they don't. i don't think so. everyone's too busy with their own lives just like me in my own to think about such stuff...

and even if they do, so what? nothing's accomplished unless there is true acceptance and love and we haven't exactly reached that stage in our christian walk...

i only feel out of place because my childhood friends who were once with me are no longer. time has moved on and so have i. yet i'm questioning which is the right. who determines what is right? The Lord says that we have to be in the world but not of the world- that in itself, i'm strongly struggling with... the Lord says we have to be a part of the community... the church. but in some ways i don't feel i belong to the 'correct' group...

you know... i can actually feel more comfortable with the adults from my dad's cell than people my age in church. i now understand why there are so many younger christians in church who don't attend the youth service. do i blame them? no i don't. and my cell currently has alot of those people i mentioned about. seems like i'm not really going to care about details... i'm just going to do what i need to do. know that they shouldn't in any case feel the way i do. find community within the cell group... i just be there to facilitate. then maybe when everything's fine and settled... i'll move out and see where else i can serve... where else i should go...

so should we go ahead and make judgements when people do leave the church? I wonder... i'm for the case that under every circumstance i would want to project a christian community that loves, whether or not at that point in time that person did feel part of the community... that accepts...

but i ask myself... you accept and love... but are you there enough?

do you spend enough time there for others to see and be encouraged? no. i'm merely a selfish little spoilt girl who thinks nothing but golf no?

and some occcasional shopping.

i admit. i'm different. not because of whatever circumstances i am in. i'm arrogant yet not ignorant of the fact. i choose to appear ignorant and do whatever i want to do. why? because i do the things i do not want to do and do not do the things i need to do... i believe i think really different and feel really different. since young it has always been that way i guess. how many more people actually have gone through death and returned only to want to do more and nothing else?

except that sometimes my attention is viewed as incorrectly placed. but why? who dictates what? must we always be joining every christian activity? in your wishes and your choices? i have mine and i don't intend to let them down...

so i have a cca. i spend a great deal of time on it. does that make me any less a christian? it's up to your discretion. but i encourage my friends there. aren't i in the world? and now i'm trying to pull away from this... simply because i want to be free from it to serve God in other areas i haven't explored. like dance and in writing... does that make me less focused?

not that i ignore my friends from aiesec. i'm on good terms with them and they know they always can count on me being nice and smiling always... thank God that i can still be a testimony thus far... but it ain't easy... especially when no one appreciates the fact that you're doing what you are doing... simply because they don't understand...

of course i do have christian friends along the way who encourage and pray alongside with me... thank God for my friends in VCF... don't know what it would have been had i not met them... much as i don't get to see them often... i see them very little... yet there is a community and love i don't find elsewhere... who blames me for being selfish and wanting to join more of vcf? no one should.

thank you those guys aka security for making my trip down to cell so wonderful today... you guys showed you cared. especially in a time when i was contemplating alot. it wasn't much to ask about my day and listen to my crap... but you guys did. andrew, derrick and des... thanks...

hey bro, you rock man!

i'm trying very hard to be laconic. but i'm vocal and so what? discriminate again?

everything in its time...

i'm supposed to be packed till i'm breathless from the weight of it... but thank God the packed is in and the breathless is out... :)

would be having more presentations coming up next week and i realised that honestly, taking 5 core subjects is no joke especially when in business, the midterms and the handing up of reports are always precariously close... not to mention that i would be having the five papers more or less in one week, all in a row... but ending early this semester and that's really great... only that i realise that would only mean more time for me to adjust to having my own church youth camp before having to pack and go the following day i come back for malaysia for anntic!

my commitments are starting to really kick in now... take saturday. would be in school by 8am and going off at 1030 for dance practice in church from 12-3pm... then going back to nus for project discussion at 430... although that doesn't sound very feasible honestly... got to speak to my friend about this... there's got to be a way i don't end up traveling so much without food to boot... *sob*

anyways... finance lecture was superbly fun today and i really enjoyed all the math that went in to the calculations and the like... is that a confirmation that i should be taking finance then? I still do not know... but God leads... he will...

sometimes i'm just amazed!

that God can use the most insignificant thing (or rather, seemingly so) to teach me things i normally would not think of...

take my recent outbreak of pimples. man were they bad. but i realised that the very issue of it all was the foundation that i switched to and my skin was rather allergic to it. this is going to sound lame but see if my foundation of it all is the wrong thing already, it doesn't matter what else i put on top of it... it doesn't matter how it looks like then and there.. what matters the most is: can it sustain you throughout? are you able to live with your foundation choice and know it's going to make you feel all better about yourself and not worse? that it genuinely helps and doesn't hurt?

my flu. the flu bug gave me a rundown of the various ways i could be reaching out to other people... first of all, i didn't know that i knew that many people in bizad itself and while i was trying to silently sniff away my tissues of erm... ***** alot of people came up to me and asked how i felt and how i was for all these while they haven't seen me... seems like i do matter to alot of people in bizad! even those i simply meet down the corridor... seems like my smile has touched some people's hearts at least... it was very very heartening! and that should be how it all starts isn't it? :)

my presentation this afternoon and though i didn't have ANY time to rehearse nor go through what i needed to present this afternoon... i just told him that i am so so busy this week and the next and that i am not going to depend on my strength but his. especially in today's case where i felt that my throat was going... and alot of people could tell so... and he was faithful. my group didn't rehearse nothing...

but the teacher said that our presentation was fantastically done, the handouts was good (although we really did it last minute due to alot of cock-ups here and there with the nus email system) and our question and answer was superb.

what else but his grace? before i tried to take credit for all that (because honestly the teacher made it very obvious that she liked my part) i reminded myself of who it was that gave me my voice despite my not taking care of myself the whole time... despite my lack of sleep which, looking back was foolish... i struggled, hell ya... i did... i just closed my eyes and said: thank you Jesus...

it was so hard to release... something small... seemingly insignificant. but true. and you know what? i felt so much better then... suppose that it would have been easier on the ears of my fellow classmates as well! boasting takes no one anywhere...

i've learnt.

and i've learnt that true peace comes when you obey the father's will... when you pray until something happens... and it does come your way in life... somehow the peace which has always been within blossoms into a wonderful smile within you... thanks for being my smile dear!

silly bugger!

no not scolding anyone here... but seems like it sounds like so ain't it? :)

the flu bug has been going around and yes it has gotten me. but i won't let it get a good hold or grip on me for sure... been drinking vitamin C water all day... that should do the trick.. and of course as with all weekends, i sleep alot... :)

that probably means no heaty food for me.. and i'm so very sad to say that that should include chocolates.. but the word 'should' remains... dang huh?

yes i have been gorging... my friends at the NUS dedication service were aghast at the amount i ate... and it wasn't even my dinner... so now you know how bad it is... haha... i giggle when i think of that... cause till today that was the last time i had chocolate cake and yes it's starting to feel like it's been months now...

irony. i've been trying to get him on a better diet and seems like it ain't going anywhere with my contradictory actions.... suppose that it's been leaving him a lot more confused than before we got together... *smile*

and so i had my first dance practice... somehow the whole idea of contemporary dance didn't hit me as that kind of dance until today... when me and my friends saw the steps we had to learn... those trained dancers went 'ouch'... imagine that... *glup* but we did alot of stretching before that and those were good... cause i could even manage a split! something i never thought i would be able to do now...

but perhaps it's God's working... not my own...

*grin* i mean... i NEVER would have thought of joining this ministry if it were not that the in-charge is my mom's good friend...

oh well!

least it's free stretching lessons! could do some serious toning... heh... we had to do the guys' push-ups just now... oh how my arms ached...

mom's making that quay with coconut on top of it for tea break... don't know what it is called... but we had bread on toast with tons of kaya this morning... whoa my mom's starting to support my new diet... heh... ( i hope she doesn't... cause that would spell disaster with a 'D')

he'll never hear the end of it... that's how!!!

well well well so who's got the brains now? :)

the math people.

ok i'll admit. :)

i almost didn't get the *hint* there. haha. thank God i still got math blood within!!!

had a date i couldn't refuse. a grandpa whom i'm used to seeing very often in the gym asked me to play tennis with him. somewhat, never really been interacting with my own natural grandpas (since one passed away before i was born and the other when i was 3), i agreed.

and today was the game. i didn't know how to play it really. i'm used to playing with people my age and stuff... and so i'll usually give the balls a good whack and make people run about as much as my body can take me. of course in the case that i eventually do end up running alot myself. good and done!

i had to slow down the pace and be sensitive to age differences.

not that i doubt his capabilities... for a man his age, he has ALOT of stamina. easily could beat anyone to pulp with constant running and swimming, or cycling and stuff. i wouldn't doubt his capabilities for a triathlon actually... :)

haiz. whatever. i am at home trying to contemplate between reading my notes for later's lecture and just resting. these few days has been more hectic than usual. but i take one day at a time. thank God.

our business welcome tea was well attended! thank God for his provisions.

though i regret that i couldn't have done the baking with the rest of them on monday due to my classes. oh well...

you can't always have everything!

aiesec's first local committee meeting is this saturday but i have got dance practice in church. guess since the dance practice got to my ears first i'd just go for that one.

not that anything would have made any differences. honestly, i enjoy dancing over whatever...

WHATEVER. i give up.

after having a couple of slices of pizza being my dinner i just had to have some sashimi and chocolate cake and cheese cake along with it. just had to. couldn't control and love to eat.

disgusted.

whatever. i give up.

got into the cors system finally.

didn't make full use of my beloved time. haiz.

the perils of being a student.

i hate the whole tutorial system thingy. period.

what's supposed to make our lives easier has turned into a monster burden. everyone's logging on to a system that cannot accomodate so many servers and they extended the tutorial registration for the second round, not the first.

where's the logic?

where's the brains here?

one's only affecting the students' lectures as i can see the significant increase in number of people bringing their labbies to school and trying to log on in class and complaining about the slow system over msn simultaneously...

i'm only shocked to learn that msn didn't jam for the myriad of complains running here and there...

argh.

irritation.flogging.com

i'm feeling a little edgy right now. a little pricky and possibly a little yes, irritated. but i guess like what we shared about during pdl on sunday. we live for his glory and even if it means our pride, ego and the like being stepped upon all over and over again.... why ever not let it happen?

and today was bad. mooncake, choc ice cream, cheese cake, sugi cake, appie pie and erm some more ********* can you imagine? I think not even a guy could manage that... i wonder what has gone into my head... perhaps it's getting dumber from the lack of oxygen... like how i don't know...

AAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

how did this happen???

my regime and my diet?

my sanity?

my never wanting to lose? (although that is good in a sense)

my discipline?

right now everything's being flung out of my head, life and what-nots....

it scares me.

no not the work load getting to me at all though i'm amazed at why i hadn't after looking through ALL the midterms and exams and project work and individual assignments that i have got to do...

oh i spoke to his brother on the phone yesterday night.. pretty funny... amusing... chatting with someone who knows him inside out... should be sharing some tips someday...

and the amount of commitment i'm not willing to give to a particular cca... is unnerving... and making me change my attitude towards things... perhaps that's the issue here...

I need to change. nope not because of anyone or anybody. i listen to advice but i NEVER take what anyone says as the truth. because the truth is the Bible. why deviate?

round unlimited!

gorgings have never been this fun... as i paused to look at myself this morning after that humongous dinner i had yesterday at marcus' mom's birthday party... wow... hehe... i never knew what one night could do to you...

but in retrospec... seems like i've been eating alot and many times more than him... these days... goodness wonder when pigs will fly... they should be by now... :)

my books are so expensive. i think i seriously need to work during the holidays and get my "sophie's textbook-fund"... argh.

and i feel that i have never been more liberated to serve him in whatever ministry he has called me into.. seems when i stop to think and stop saying yes to everything... he somehow plans it all for me and i have been in more things that i ever thought possible with my human mind...

dance practice's coming up this weekend... woo hoo!

and i finally bought all my textbooks, and gotten rid of the duty to keep up with purchasing the books and standing around stupid at the co-op...

free day tomorrow... opportunity cost of actually going to work at my internship place tomorrow (cause my ex-colleague called me up) would be the beauty rest i need and probably the stuff i need to catch up with...

as you can tell my weekend's been all worship stuff and his mom's birthday party and marketing with my mom cause the things get so heavy for her to carry...

so i really need the free day. *nods head*

otherwise... *teary-eyed* i might become insane with all my commitments coming up here and there...

for now... am insanely sanguine. not quite the sane insane as yet... :D

still no signs of slowing down...

how come?

and yes two consecutive days of spinell's apple crumble.... trust me people, the outlet at lee kong chien building is pretty reasonable because they cut the price for the students... :)

and chips and all... wow... i cannot imagine man.... maybe it's withdrawal symptoms.

lacking very far behind in my work in the sense that i get this feeling i don't know very much about what i would be studying in the weeks to come... seriously need to do a lot more reading up to comprehend...

oh my par 3 game yesterday was fantastic... seriously cool. recovered with a lot of good shots but it also occurred to me that i play better when my coach is around. perhaps it's that mental alertness... cause once he left my shots went haywired. i wonder if that is part of my characteristics... or simply me liking his style of teaching as he is firmly strict. gives no extra ground and very precise.

not been having much to say... guess when everything is told to a special someone... along with always catching up with friends and telling them about your day and so... it starts to get pretty tiring to blog...

seven-layer chocolate cake!

was VERY good... and i must say that despite my enthusiasm to eat, i'm starting to feel a little bloated and slowing down... yet the clam chowder in a huge onion bread didn't make me feel bad at all last night at about 10.30pm... *bleah* what am i trying to say? I'm trying so hard to lose the weight away and yet the eating habits haven't exactly been good...

and i think i should try noticing my strength alot more these days... i seem to be pretty 'chor lor' whenever i go... whatever i do... be it slamming the door shut or simply opening it up, somehow subtle actions can have vast consequences... yeeks... i'm turning into some incredible person with a quiet outlook... notice the word outlook is outlook... *laughs*

anyway... Happy Birthday Singapore! and happy birthday to the only person i know whose birthday is today... gabriel... *if in any case you do come across this part of my blog at the right time*

haiz. well from kelvin's comment on my blog you guys would have known that the huge hold-up yesterday was due to some guy who was thrown out of the truck in an accident and rolled over by another truck... sharon lu from vcf said she saw the tyre marks on the guy... haiz... no i don't feel disgusted but i feel sad... in a way... you just never know what would happen tomorrow...

thanks for updating me kel...

ah yes i sat in science of music lecture and man it was so fun! ok i gate-crashed but so what? how else would you get to know such a fantastic professor who's christian, funky, a physicist and a musician? oh man... that's so what i would have loved to do!!! unfortunately i have taken my 5 core modules and i am mentally not prepared to take another... whether or not i would SU it... ya... but it'll definitely be something i would be taking in the future... :)

MiDi composition!!! and wave velocity equations... super me... super my forte and super my favorite part of physics... for the physics part that is... not so the Midi thingy...

ya man boy am i getting the urge to eat...

it's absolutely, grotesquely, horrifyingly, horrendously true. I have picked up on my appetite and though i might have wanted to look back i cannot. I have been gorging and gorging non-stop.... trust me it's not the best thing to do especially when your boyfriend is on some form of diet and you waver between not eating to help him out mentally and secretly hiding a horde of disgustingly fattening stuff... :(

*disgusted with oneself*

ah huh... but it's been the most enjoyable holidays i have had in a long long time! school has just started and it started with quite a bang literally... i was stuck in a traffic jam that lasted for 45 min. it's one of the longest jam i have experienced in singapore so far in more recent times...

quite an experience isn't it? but though i was kicking myself for making my dad so late for his meeting as a result... got some daddy-daughter talk in the car as usual... like in old times... so nice, entertaining and fun in my own daddy-girl way...

had to do this national education survey... goodness for a moment i thought that it would be somewhat like questions on the history of singapore or something... but seems like they only want to know if young singaporeans are happy to be singaporeans... and whether or not they would stay... for the record and matter i wouldn't want to migrate anywhere else... because this is the place i was born in, bred and although stifling sometimes i have found my own way to be creative amidst the noise... am proud of it. had i been bred in the US i might have been classified as a "ignorant nincompoop". *no offense* just trying to stay patriotic nearing the nation's 40th birthday!

or rather trying to state my point.

back to school and a rundown on my modules... (notice how this is frighteningly similar?)

*grin*

Business Communication:
If it were all about talking crap and making quick remarks about anything and everything i would score. cause class participation is like 30%???

Finance:
really excited about this one. the first module of my intended major. notice the word "intended" cause things might change if i don't like this one...

Managerial accounting:
if it were anything like financial accounting kiss this goodbye... but it isn't! my friends have mentioned that it's a totally different concept and idea... and so i am praying and hoping for the best...

Asia-Pacific Business:
somewhat like a business-follow-up from my previous globalisation module... not too bad sir! this is one nice baby... hehe...

Management Science:
back to my calculus roots and yes i would LOVE this module because not every business student is an ex-math student... *okies i shan't try to be too 'de yi'*

humility... is the key...

ciao!

impressed by a single 19-year-old

never have i seen such a vast amount of wisdom and charisma in a 19-year-old.... and smart to boot too! top in his school in Xi'an province, this 19-year-old used to be vice chairperson of his school's student's union as well as a basketball player... when asked about his stand about many issues especially sensitive ones concerning china and the 'neighbouring' countries he simply had only perfectly objective answers to have... i was so so so pleasantly surprised... passed him immediately.

day two of the aiesec interview and it has been draining... goodness. I almost fell over from the state of some answers and was bowled over by some fantastic ones...

baked chocolate chip cookies as well as banana chocolate muffins with shepherd's pie for lunch... think i'm getting too fat. but is loving food a crime? haiz...

who knows what tomorrow brings?

trying to extend my thoughts on many things using a clean slate of mind that i have early on in the morning before it gets crowded out with activities and i start to think not-so-sane...

golf. addictive and it taught me to focus and reflect on my thoughts...

many times, life is like golf. you hit bad shots quite a lot of the time and for a small part of it you hit some good shots. there are some atrocious misses and hits but you got to move on anyway... the people behind you waiting impatiently for their turns are like the people on this earth... no one's giving you all the time in the world to work with... everyone's harsh with you... no one's going to waste their precious time waiting for you to clear up and work things out... they want you either going correctly with the flow or out you go...

and shots. bad shots make you keep reminising those ugly moments, like the uglier moments in your life.. so when you need to get back on track after an ugly shot... negative thoughts hound u like some disease.. "are you sure you can do this? you failed the other time!" "don't even think about it, even professionals don't do that good" and lots of other thoughts... which i shan't pause to mention much about for now...

yet you should be getting into a good state of mind to take every shot, be it from the bunker, near the bushes, after dropping two shots as penalty, etc... how to????

you try to eliminate those horrible thoughts but they keep coming back... that's when your playing buddy comes in to encourage you and keep you going... so you realise that a good and encouraging playing buddy is by far a much wiser choice than having someone who's good but gives a hurricane of instructions for you to play their way of game and gives hard looks every time it doesn't go their way...

hey it's your game... not theirs'... why bother with their comments? because listening to advice is a characteristic of a wise man... not heeding every advice of course... that would be suicide.

and you try to keep your eyes on that flag... though small and not seen much at times... yet you feel intuition to keep the shot at range... but God wants you to have the holy spirit's guidance... to "feel" the shot... to keep going... to trust his intuition... his instructions...

changing clubs is likened to changing the tools you have in life to approach every situation... no one person has the same driving range and no one person can hit exact same shots to an exact area as you... though you might not be polished in using certain clubs... it's ok... God leads...

:)

at the end... my goodness... you could have played a fantastic game yourself all on your own, but without a person beside you to celebrate it... what meaning does that take?

yet if you played fantastically but your buddy there is down, wouldn't you go and comfort and lessen his/her loss? wouldn't you want to be comforted after a bad round?

that's when the community comes in...

5 purposes:

Worship: In everything you do, it's a worship unto him
(everything you do is part of the golf game of life)

Fellowship:
(taste the joy of having encouragers and being an encourager in life)

Discipleship:
(to improve you have got to have a coach! or alternatively teach someone else when you're brilliant at it... could fine tune some finer points in life)

Ministry:
(filling up divots for others? a service.)

Evangelism:
(you can always take this whole description of what i have just shared to start sharing on the gospel isn't it?)

*God made life beautiful and people creative. don't limit your thoughts*

*smile*

Willy Wonka's zany... very zany...

and the show was so so good! I loved the way Johnny Depp acted as the slightly cranky willy wonka and i must say that this has been one of the best holidays i have had in a long long time! simply eating and eating and taking my own sweet time to watch some movie preview of a childhood author and book i have loved for all time as well as a fantastic golf game i had this afternoon... it just doesn't get better does it? oh but yes it does and it will... i have yet to start on my baking with him and it won't be for some time till i try to forget it all anyway.. would be leading worship at my mom's cell gathering and stuff too and so that feels all exciting already!

have gained a serious amount of weight by just eating and gorging but i'm not really feeling all that bad. i am more amazed at how i could be slightly hooked to the holidays so much and perhaps a good golf game as well... i was so amazed that i could hit some very good shots and made good putts... that lipped alot though... but from many feet away i would say... :)

so i'm starting to become equally zany as well...

will be going for another game of golf soon i guess... how soon depends on my time availability factor... a par three course alone takes 2 hours... goodness gracious huh?

guess the key to playing golf as likened to life would be to know how to recover with confidence everytime you hit a bad shot (which was often for me this game and time around). with no expectations put on yourself but trying your best in every and any situation would bring you a long time ahead... like how God wants you to... :O)