alright. so i'm a little pmsed.

grit. i'm trying to be everywhere and i can't. i'm trying to please everyone and i'm not able to. i'm trying to keep the peace... but seems like i'm not getting anywhere.

i don't want to do alot of the things that i am doing. i want to do some things that i am not doing. i want to reconstruct my commitments again. but it's impossible... it's like being in this vacuum and i cannot get out of it... everything floats without gravity- no laws. everything just exists.

i don't just want to exist. i want to live for him. i don't want those things that don't matter anymore. but i just want to be and do something's that of worth. i don't wish to jump about and rave about something that is possibly never going to be of any worth...

period.