mayday mayday!

help. one wrong turn and the rest goes tumbling. you wonder if this is a trial set up by yourself or a trail intended to secure certain things in life or both?

interrogations done in bad taste though i reckon they have been found wanting of an earlier timeslot.

can't blame others for the sudden outbursts. it's been a difficult time for explanations and understanding.

especially when they haven't been following up and keeping up.

God's been telling me something despite the wrong turns and hard knocks. he still wants me. question is whether i am willing to open my heart to let him want me? I do. I have experienced at least somewhat enough to know that a day in the Lord's presence is even worth fighting for. what not eternity?

fulfillment and justification of your own actions... which takes precedence?

serving the Lord with bliss and pride or a lacklustre spirit? if with the latter i would rather none. till things are right again... then again things are never going to be entirely alright isn't it?

and alot of words are mere nouns. words have lost their meaning in translation and time... people change and labels become obsolete. but i don't think it's my task to convert the converted. but to let go and see what God makes of it all...

another buffet lunch. third one in a row this week alone.

another shopping trip this week. two to date.