yes and amen?

not alluding to that song i sometimes feel that the things i want to do i do not do and the things i do not want to do i do ...

and the words i want to say in situations that never come are crafted so well yet the words i want to say in situations i never expected to be in are rather poorly acquainted with myself.

dance practice went well and i dearly treasured today when everything came into place. and it was the 2nd practice. God has been so merciful to me especially when i entertained thoughts of quitting it all.

music practice was shortened due to 'unforeseen circumstances' and i had a time trying to balance between fighting for our rights to the third floor and being christian-like.

what is being christian-like? i don't know the term and never want to be acquainted with it. it gives me a sense of false humility and pride. i associate it with a very powdered up version of church which is never appealing to anyone but the pastor. and in the case of a hip pastor, there would be none. except people like uriah heep in david copperfield.