who's going to save me now?

so i guess the youth are going to see so much more of me after not seeing me for some time... at the youth service... :)

going to be leading the two worship sessions we have got this month. not too overwhelmed by that though. more so for the easter dance that i am rather compelled by a sense of helplessness otherwise to join, due to the absence of pearl who injured herself. and so now, i have to learn up everything in the span of a week when everyone else had been practising for nearly 4 months now...

:(

and bank of america has been uncontactable for me to wire money for my overdraft charges and such.

this is an insane period in time.

God, i shall not fret.

but i can't help but feel guilty that he can't go to church tonight though he really wanted to due to the fact of his knowledge of the special service at the eleventh hour. but our presence has been confirmed with a friend who's holding her 21st bday party and the presents wrapped and card written... am i to be angsty about his coming with me? or getting him to go to church? there doesn't seem to be a right or wrong now. only what was set at first. he has to learn how to plan. there. hmph.