in a world where tough isn't tough, and soft isn't soft...

what does it really mean to be a tough woman in the 'real world' out there? (as if the world isn't real enough to us)

is it showing only the strengths and never the weaknesses? being demanding yet commanding respect? being tough-minded and completely objective? it can be many things, but toughness can also be used to describe taking the road less traveled...

where everyone is acting the above as stated, being 'tough' in the world's sense of things, perhaps the one who's tough is really the one who dares to do the unexpected and shunned.... being soft. so perhaps being soft isn't really being soft... but ironically, it's being tough.

i was just thinking to myself... and when i do i start thinking of absurd things... like how a single word can mean so differently... and i am not just talking about the obvious, like 'match' in the word 'matchstick' or a 'football match'... but a simple 'sure' can be taken with different connotations...

i don't think i am such a politically correct person, because that would make me more guarded with my words and the like... (and i simply blurt out alot of things... ) but i tend to think that i am a person who likes to ponder alot... and study human relations and reactions... because i don't think i have much of an emotional side to talk about... so i look at my outside world to gain some form of inspiration to understand myself...

am slowly reverting to the lazy me... the me who waits till the last minute to do her work or study... maybe that studying method would suit me better... since i have always been successful at that... but you never know.... perhaps times have changed and the people around me are much more competitive... the variables have changed and so the predictions and hypothesis need to be adjusted to reflect such changes in the environment...

doing nothing has never been more of a blessing... i used to abhor not doing anything constructive... i now enjoy not doing much productively... but much enjoyably... baking, reading, writing, thinking, sleeping, sports, meeting up with people... ok so maybe it isn't nothing... i don't think i can do nothing... perhaps just some adjustments to activities?

but the lull period has come... the world cup is taking over my world... and i have come to a point of stoppage time in my life... the world can keep going... i need to watch soccer.