Whatever happened?

to my sensibility? to my steadiness of mind? to my relentless spirit?

I am backed by my own emotions and I am utterly confused as to what to think or do right now... to think that someone would have such an impact on my thoughts, feelings and activities (since I don't have much that I feel like doing when considering him) is amazing to me... I don't recall ever being that sort of a softie...

I really don't know what in the world happened.. I am keeping my fingers crossed for the best... I don't know why the MIA resulted. I don't know why I am acting the way I am... I don't know why sensibility flew out of my mind and hands.. and I don't know why I exist to bring burdens and pains to people...