a woman of not too much substance...

everyone seeks to want to be that woman of substance but without those in the form of cellulite. where on earth am i going to find someone like that? i think we all need to understand that not one is born with everything to boot. one gives way for another. to whom much is given, much is expected. unless one seeks to use beauty along the likes of fighting for 'world peace' in contests i shall not mention... it's useless really...

with age comes beauty's flee... so why bother?

but i didn't know it had gotten so bad to the point where even the skinniest girl around thinks she's fat. this is not only a show of poor social skills especially when women she is talking to are way larger than her in size... it is also a show of insecurity of her own.

thinking back i used to be obessessed with weight issues. now i found something better. am hoping to attain an atheletic body more than anything else. one that enables me to do the sports i love... and if in the process of seeking this i do lose some weight... good for me...

and i can finally eat without guilt. eat and be carefree... enjoy sports... what nots...

i had better enjoy my eating now when i am young, when i grow old, goodness knows the dieting that i would have to carry out the weeks leading to squeezing into that gown for marriage, after childbirth, after ageing has set in... if i actually diet now...

so what am i to do when these views are imposed on me again? when my mom saying i need to go on a diet and am too fat... my skinny friends around me griping about their fats and weight?

"I am so fat, so ugly..."

"oh really? whatever you say, i'd agree with you."