a purpose in everything...

and now i am starting to see the things that i wouldn't have had i not been given the opportunities to... being with people makes you see the uglier sides of them... but are you willing to take it all in? then it would inevitably bring me back to square one. i believe i was wise in not taking any rash moves but what God desired for me to see and do...

you don't miss your water till your well runs dry...

the purpose was for me to see the differences in everyone and the things that i have been deliberating about have been exposed... been thought through... now i'm trying to reach some sort of a concensus... and it gets tough when everyone tries to put in their very-much-valued-by-me opinions...

which makes me listen to these advice... but heeding them is another matter... there's wisdom in not following what everyone else says... but choosing what God desires for me...

at my age, getting attached should be a funny thing to have it seems... but why are we all embroiled in it? we don't have finances... the guys the girls want to marry have absolutely no idea about marriage and all it entails... the girls the guys want to marry are immature and not ready for the life of a wife nor mother at all... of course this doesn't apply to just everyone... but honestly! seeing myself with a baby would just put me into hyperventilation... for now... haha... it might be different in the future...

;)

who knows what tomorrow brings?

and i have a feeling that it's not the end of things... i have a new hope for something even greater... i'm not asking for the world nor hoping on a chance that i should not hold on to for now... i'm just happy, at peace and rest and with joy... which one can never know how it feels like unless one goes through a week of lack of rest and weird gastronomical time clocks, and stress... i admit. i was stressed. i was upset. but the tears must stop flowing and the strength must keep coming... :)