i dunno what to think...

everytime i think that there has to be some end to my problems... new ones pop right up... and it seems that it's a never ending barrage of complications... emotional issues... and it affects me... When i start to think that i am most immune to whatever that threatens to affect me... it just has to come in the form of the people closest to me... i know the life i want to live isn't all the typical... i am not your stay-home sort of girl... but yet i am a committed individual.. and i pledge something because i really want to... but the commitments seem to be in conflict. will i ever find something that doesn't? must something always have to give? i admit i know something has always got to give... but i anticipated everything else and got over so many issues only to find that what i thought would never be a problem, has become a problem...