tired but happy. confused but feeling blessedly so...

not been getting enough rest recently but it's been work and more work not just from the attachment prospect, but also from ccas and stuff... crossing my fingers now... am trying to apply for leave... which shouldn't be the case because this is not a permanent job but i'll still be trying... my very best. (this is for the anntic com retreat)

and this would mean no possible time that i can actually take leave for my golf lesson. *sob* (which i need to have)

sacrifce, not sacrilege... girl... think about it.

confused as to the whole layout of things but i've been blessed to note and see his hand in everything... what more should or can i ask for? perhaps it's better not to judge things or to see things in the way i have always done... so that i can finally let go and let God... and see his providence in place... get pleasantly surprised in so many ways and not waste my time in this pondering...

no this isn't being cynical, i just am tired.