Today's the only 'rest' day

It seems weird but somehow or other- the days have been going like lightning- and I have this slight fear of being left behind when I do get left behind- of aging and the like. I wonder if it is due to inexperience and ignorance that what I understand from some people about life being so meaningless and conceding defeat to the idea of simply wasting away- does not apply to me. I hope it never does- I want to enjoy every moment of my life here on this earth.

Friends- I have taken a more active role in meeting up with my friends and family and cousins- chatting them up with no strings or motives attached. I just got used to the idea that what the world deems simply as "wasting time" is actually very fun, intriguing, mentally challenging and enlightening. I learn so much from people around me everyday- I don't always have the best ideas- and even if I do - there is always room for improvement :)

No one really dares to believe me when I say I am being more astute with the value of being tight-pocketed. Of course the lure of that spending trip to the US or Australia is always going to appeal to me- maybe I haven't lost it- I just am not used to spending mula for fashion in sunny Singapore. I am used to my US stripped malls and huge stores that has exactly what I want and where I want it- and at the price I can almost know off the top of my head. I guess that retail management course was rather alright during my exchange- and you can say that it started the wave of a barrage of clothes that saw it's way through and tried to go through my wardrobes unscathed. Of course I couldn't bear to part with most of them- I am just such a hoarder in that way... but I think still- that I have become less interested in shopping- and I shop like a guy- I aim and shoot- I don't throw random rocks that blow my budget. For now.

Money is hard to come by of course- which is new revelation to a girl who has never had to worry too much about money... no I am not freaking rich, just middle-class and able to earn quick bucks with tutoring...

Speaking about money- work has been great :) I love my colleagues, I love my job, I love the opportunities and more given to me and I love the challenges everyday. My small division in Singapore has been fantastic and I harbour dreams of being a young senior executive one day and soon... I try at this with no more than a good determination that seizes itself when I try to overtime too often (the seizing caused by the air conditioner being turned off in the office). And so I never do more than 9 hours of work on a half hour lunch break. Which is comforting. Then again- might be shocking to some :p

I feel like I am building towards my good break soon enough and I can't wait. But first I have to keep things level headed and cool- thank the Giver and not just embrace the gifts. Give and Serve even when I feel like I have no discipline to. Press on towards the goal He has set out for me- and I know it's no mean feat- it means a feat that takes me over and past defeat :)